This world tells us we need to have it all together.
We need to be stronger.
Hustle some more.
We need to deal with our feelings alone.
Being vulnerable shows that we are weak.
Weakness is a bad thing.
Again, be stronger.
We should all have it all together. All the time.
The world says to have pride.
Be sure of yourself.
Don’t back down from a fight. Be strong. Don’t surrender.
This world is full of lies. Lies that make us feel terrible about ourselves. We are trying so very hard to have it all together but always coming up short.
There is something I have been struggling with on a pretty regular basis for the last year or so. Feelings of insecurity usually swirled around in me making me not really enjoy the thing that I loved so much to do. The enemy was feeding me lies and stealing my joy. This is something I do once a week and a while ago I started praying to God as I drove in the car and asked him to help me. Help me to be authentic and secure in who I am. Help me to have fun. Help me to not be in my head so much. (A regular issue for me.) And guess what, it worked. It 100% worked. My mind was calmed, my feelings of insecurity washed away and I was enjoying myself each and every time I went. Until I stopped.
After months of praying I buckled myself into my driver seat and as I was backing out of our garage I thought, “Well I’ve been praying a long time and God has helped me get over this hurdle so now I’m good! I don’t need to pray anymore. I’m strong enough to get through this on my own from now on.”
Except I wasn’t.
Once I quit praying, slowly but surely those same insecurities started slowly creeping their way in. I quit enjoying my time as much and felt myself going back to the way I used to be.
And I was so frustrated. And so mad at myself. WHY was I SO WEAK???? WHY couldn’t I just be like normal people and not struggle so much?????? WHY was I still struggling when GOD had already took care of this for me????? What was wrong with me???
And one day I realized what I was missing: I AM HUMAN. I AM WEAK. We all are WEAK.
We NEED GOD every single day. Not just when we are struggling, not just when we feel like praying but every. single. day.
This world and people of this world will tell you that you should be able to handle things on your own, that you are a weak person if you need help all the time, that nobody else struggles with the things you are struggling with and you are a loser if you can’t get it figured out. Of course we all struggle with different things but the truth is, we all struggle, in some shape, way or form.
My pride kept me from continuing praying to God. I thought I was strong enough. I thought I could do it on my own, thought I SHOULD be able to do it on my own. I thought this was such a trivial thing and I should be able to just get over it. But I couldn’t.
Until you start spending time and praying to God you will never know the amazing peace that only HE can provide.
And it’s there. It’s right there. And GOD is calling you to his table. Calling you to come to him.
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
I love this bible verse. And it’s true. HE can and will help you if all you will do is ask.
For me this was hard at first because I thought it was so stupid that I was dealing with those negative feelings in the first place. I thought it was so dumb that I just couldn’t get over it. But when I came to the end of myself…. I went to HIM. And HE helped me.
What is it that you need to go to him for?
He says, “Ask and you will receive.” Are you ready? Have you came to the end of yourself?
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